A life change isn't necessarily a bad thing:
When you were younger did you ever plan out your life? Did you ever tell yourself that you'd be married by the age of twentysomething and have your first child in your mid twenties, with an office job somewhere in London? Just me then.
As many of you will know I had my first child when I was 18, not my twenties. And having only just graduated university an office job in London is out of the question too. I'm 23, and although I've lived with my partner for the last 3 years we're no where near ready to get married.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that life doesn't always work out the way you plan. I had all these plans when I was younger of how my life was going to be and so far nothing has gone according to plan.
When I started university I was going down my plan of having an office job, but now that I've finished I no longer want that. I want to be a nurse, and I was going to go back to college but that is also out of the question now.
Mike was recently offered two jobs and went to an interview for both. Ideally we wanted him to get the first job as it meant that I could still work too, but as I've already experienced life doesn't go the way you want it to. Instead however Mike got the second job, which turned out to be more money than both of our current jobs combined. The only downside is that due to the nature of the job I wouldn't be able to work anymore, so I'm taking a step back to allow Mike to progress in his career.
I'm both happy and sad about this. Happy because I won't be working and can therefore focus on my shop and my hobby of graphic design, as well as spending time with William, and baking cakes etc but sad because I'll miss having my own money rather than relying on Mike.
I've learnt that everything happens for a reason though so I know that something good will come from this. It's funny really as the job that Mike got wasn't even a job either of us knew about. We were house hunting and our new landlord found out Mike was looking for a new job and told us about it.
Do you ever think "what if?" For example what if you took a year out of study, would you still be the same person you are today? Would your path still have led you to where you are today? I often wonder myself. What if I had William at an older age (although I don't regret having him when I did!)? If I didn't go to college or if I had chosen a different course would I have met Mike? Would I have been closer to my mum if I wasn't such a terrible teenager? Would I still be the person I am if I wasn't faced with the challenges that life has thrown at me?
The point of this post is to stop planning your life. Life is unpredictable and there will be variables that you had never even thought to consider. I believe everything happens for a reason and so I'm just going to go with it. I'm going to take it one day at a time and see where I end up.
I still picture myself in 5 years time by Mikes side with our own home but I'm not going to force it to happen.
When life gives you lemons, add tequila! Make the bad good, and the good better.