Thursday, 23 April 2015

Lifestyle: What do you want to do when you're older?

(source)

I'm 23 years old, about to graduate university, hate my weekend job but work it to pay rent, spend too much money changing my appearance (as in tattoos, not surgery - yet) and I always get asked what I want to do when I'm older:

From a young age we're asked what we want to do when we're 'big'. When you're 5 it's usually something related to a cartoon. For example my little one wants to be a ninja turtle when he's older. As we get older it's usually something a bit more believable like a doctor or a teacher, but I noticed that when I was in high school I no longer knew what I wanted to do.
How was I meant to choose my option modules for my GCSE's without knowing what I wanted to do? And my college degree, and now my university degree.
Because I didn't know what I wanted to do, and I still don't fully know, I chose generic degrees in college and university. Degrees that I can take with me to a generic office job.

But now I have tattoos and piercing - tattoos which I have to hide in work as we're not meant to have them on display. This greatly minimises the areas of work which I can go into as many places don't allow tattoos.

I think it's stupid that I should know what I want to do. And I think it's stupid that I should have to cover up my tattoos. Yes tattoos may offend some people, but so does rude behaviour and no one has to hide that in work...

I've wanted to be a lot of things in my lifetime. I've had doctor, teacher, nurse, artist, journalist, architecture, good old fashioned 9-5 office worker, and even a housewife on my list of things I wanted to be. Truth is though that life gets in the way and you can't just map out your future like that.

I hate the job I'm in, and I hate working weekends, but it's the only job apart from night work that i can do as I have to work around William being in school.

And that's just how life is. I've been looking for other work for when I graduate but I haven't found anything.
I just want to be my own boss for now but I don't even want to continue with my shop as I'm a little bored of it.
That's the problem with me, I get bored of things easily. I know that I shouldn't and that i should just stick to something but I'm 23 years old. I have my whole life ahead of me. If I can't discover who I am in my 20s then it might be too late come my 30s (although my mums in her late 40s and she's still figuring out who she wants to be).

So fuck it. Do what you want and don't regret it. You don't have to have your life together just yet, and you don't have to have your life together by tomorrow. Just live each day as it comes and see where the future takes you.

P.S I'm not saying to give up on your dreams. If you want to be an astronaut then go ahead and pursue it. I mean it more for those who don't know where they're going.


Share:

8 comments

  1. I still have no idea what I want to be and I'm supposed to graduate next year. Constantly being asked about my plans for the future and noone wants to accept that I'm a work in progress! So I totally understand your stress...lol.

    mardeestyles.blogspot.co.uk
    x

    ReplyDelete
  2. This post came at the right time for me as I'm about to graduate too and constantly stressing myself out trying to pick a career. I chose generic subjects at school, college and university too because I couldn't decide what direction I wanted to go in and I still don't know. When I graduate I'm going to try to look into it more but every time I think about it I just feel suffocated. I hate it. At least we're not alone with this feeling though! And good on you for getting a degree no matter what it's in! Here's to not having it all sorted and not minding :)
    Rebecca | The Two Twenty Somethings
    Xx

    ReplyDelete
  3. Love this post! I went all through uni then when I finished I just thought "Now what?" Lol. I think being a ninja turtle would be an awesome job!
    Kirsty x


    PrettyBugBlog.

    ReplyDelete
  4. I'm 24 and constantly freak out because my life is nothing like i thought it would be like - i realised in my third year of uni that the career path i had chosen id fallen out of love with and no longer wanted to do so for now im stuck in a part time job with terrible wages and whilst its enough money to live on for now ... its definitely not what i want to do forever, i can't afford to move out and im forever feeling like im stuck and like i don't know what the hell im meant to be doing which honestly terrifies.

    I found this post quite reassuring to know im not the only one who doesn't really know what their plan is or what direction there heading.
    Natalie xx
    youralmostalice

    ReplyDelete
  5. I really relate with this post! I still don't know what I want to do with life and I'm 27, and I hate that some of my friends have their whole career and pension mapped out already. I love to just live by the day, as you never know where you're going to be in 3 months time never mind 30 xx

    Gemma ♥ | Miss Makeup Magpie

    ReplyDelete
  6. I'm in complete understanding of how you feel. I have one year left at University and I'm really not too sure where my life is going to go once I've finished. I know that I definitely don't want to settle down in once place but I need money before I can travel! I hope you find a job that you love and are really passionate about soon <3

    http://www.abigailalicex.com

    ReplyDelete
  7. Great post. I think the funny thing is that nobody ever really feels like they've got it figured out. I know for me, I'm getting there, but my path is definitely not what you'd call a career in the traditional sense of the word. But, 8 years after leaving uni, if you connect the dots backwards, where I am now kind of makes sense, although I could never have sat down and planned it out. So all I'd say is just follow your gut and keep adjusting. And in the end you'll land somewhere pretty good I reckon :-) x

    ReplyDelete
  8. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experiences of finding a career path. I can relate to many of your words. I’m 27 and still unsure what path to take. Have faith and take things as they come for the time being. Good luck and best wishes too! :-) xx

    Helen | Helens Fashion & Beauty Blog

    ReplyDelete

Feel free to leave a comment. If there's anything you'd like to ask me then don't hesitate in emailing me at cllrs.callierose@gmail.com or on twitter: @callierose92

© Callie Rose | All rights reserved.
Blogger Template Crafted by pipdig